sweet & light

c'est la vie

2007-08-03T09:59:00.000-10:00

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We float -- float with me --
so tenuously on the warm skin of the water,
threading through the swells of the ocean.
Looking up into the breathless sky,
forgetting for a moment this burden of being light,
wasn't it you that I saw instead?
You, the depthlessness of blue.

Who knew, who knew
Who knew that between the beats of my heart
you would carve this other space,
this other home,
a glassy margin in the breaking surf...
It's not difficult to say goodbye.
To avoid that one last lingering draught of each other's eyes.

But to keep from trying
Trying to drag the memory of your face out of oblivion,
to keep from searching for a way to return home...
Who knew, who knew.

Aug. 2, 2007.

tell me

2007-03-08T05:05:00.000-10:00

You say life is a dream where we can't say what we mean
Maybe just some roadside scene that we're driving past
There's no telling where we'll be in a day or in a week
And there's no promises of peace or of happiness

Well is this why you cling to every little thing
And pulverize and derange all your senses
Maybe life is a song but you're scared to sing along
Until the very ending

Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From the chains and shackles that they're in

Oh, tell me what good is saying that you're free
In a dark and storming sea
You're chained to your history, you're surely sinking fast
You say that you know that the good Lord's in control
He's gonna bless and keep your tired and oh so restless soul
But at the end of the day when every price has been paid
You're gonna rise and sit beside him on some old seat of gold
And won't you tell me why you live like you're afraid to die
You'll die like you're afraid to go

Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From chains and shackles that they're in
From the chains and shackles that they're in

Well life is a dream 'cause we're all walking in our sleep
You could see us stand in lines like we're dead upon our feet
And we build our house of cards and then we wait for it to fall
Always forget how strange it is just to be alive at all

oh simple thing

2007-01-14T10:15:00.000-10:00

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

back right

2006-09-24T07:55:00.000-10:00

we've been on the run
driving in the sun
looking out for number one
california here we come
right back where we started from

well, hustlers, grab your guns
your shadow weighs a ton
driving down the 101
california here we come
right back where we started from

california...california...here we come

on the stereo
listen as we go
nothing's gonna stop me now
california here we come
right back where we started from

pedal to the floor
thinkin' of you more
gotta get us to the show
california here we come
right back where we started from

california...california...here we come

home

2006-09-07T12:13:00.000-10:00

time to go back to school! and it's not leaving home that makes me afraid. i also get this feeling on leaving school at the end of the year, or LA, or hong kong ... i got it on leaving DC. and after all, home is certainly not the place. i will come back here over and over again. it's leaving that makes me afraid. it's passing. things passing. people passing. time passing. and i've always been afraid. the day i turned nine i cried as we sat around the cake. i cried because turning nine meant that i had only one more year before i could never -- NEVER -- be a single-digit age again. oftentimes i tell that story laughingly. but it's a marker of fear ... the first time i realized this longing for the present and past that i always have. this is something that is supposed to set in as you get old ... and i had it as a child.

food for thought

2006-09-03T09:52:00.000-10:00

so one of the produce stands in chinatown that i go to (they sell the best papayas...) is apparently a haven for miniature vegetables. they had miniature mangos smaller than my palm, minature bittermelon, miniature 節瓜 ... the only other place i've ever seen that specialized, if you may, in miniature vegetables was a pavilions supermarket in LA, so i'm pretty impressed at this chinatown stand cum specialty foods nook. and as for food, i went to this place called shanghai bistro on friday & rather liked it. apparently i know the owner too...the mom of one of my former punahou and kilohana (my preschool! good gosh!) classmates. they have really fantastic 小龍包 ... and we met chef chang, who kept running out to give me cool treats, like his new green tea custard filled pikachus, and his yet-to-debut mini manapua. they were so absolutely adorable.

i'm on my last strawberry pie of the summer...i made three last weekend, gave one to harry&millie (our elderly neighbors across the street) and now there's one left. sigh. i really can't complain about harvard dining hall food, but sigh. :) i learned to make creme fraiche today too...three cups cream and two tablespoons buttermilk shaken, then set cool overnight, and refrigerated. creme fraiche is awesome because it'll never curdle when you whip it up or boil it in a recipe. and as you can guess from all the fat, it's delish.

whoa...

2006-08-28T20:27:00.000-10:00

...i just felt my first earthquake. 8:15pm. it was a huge shake about a half a second long. we thought something crashed into our house. within 30 seconds our whole neighborhood was gabbing outside in the street. everyone also thought something crashed into their houses. it was pretty cool.

hit me baby one more time

2006-08-25T10:10:00.000-10:00

last trip of the summer ... the theme here woulda been heat, except it really wasn't as hot anywhere (in DC, orlando, OR scottsdale) as i expected/remembered. nonetheless, the return to hawaiian weather is sublime. you have no idea how it soothes the eyes to look at deep ocean blue.

well here we go:

WASHINGTON DC
kids, kids, & more kids. my hawaii kids were pretty cute ... though we didn't do as well as last year or the year before. aside from two days of presentations at NIH (which for me included naps of various lengths), we had a party on top of our hotel, went to the movies (where one of our kids laughed so hard in talladega nights he locked his jaw & had to go to the hospital), bowled at the naval medical center, visited the national zoo (the cheetah cubs i saw last year are now huuuuuuuuuuge), and went shopping at pentagon city. our last night there we had a banquet, and i spent about three hours dancing in heels (since chaperones couldn't leave till 1am) and then another hour chilling with the other chaperones. boo for no sleep...but yay for fun!

ORLANDO FL
deland, actually. i got there sunday afternoon after a really nauseous plane ride (due to those pesky cloud things). it took a really long time (and two tries) to land, and then an even longer time to get my luggage (but matt waited with me!). when i finally stepped out of the airport i felt like i'd walked into a sauna. luckily the rest of the week wasn't so hot (thanks in part to various passing thunderstorms). on the way back to the house we went to rubberneck at the orange city landfill fire, which was so big i'd seen it from the plane. it was crazy, and there were also 12 other cars rubberneckin along with us in this little deserted field. we went to three different springs (deleon, blue, and rock), went boating, played lots of hearts and spoons, had a dinner&movie night, played whiffleball, watched the sunrise from new smyrna beach, and saw the inaugural football game of lighthouse h.s. and i even went lawnmowin with matt, and held various snakes & tiny turtles! :) on saturday matt woke up at 4:30am to take mary & me to the airport. *muah*

LOS ANGELES CA
i was only here for two days. the afternoon i got in, we had a fiasco with united losing my luggage. during the time it was lost, we went shopping on rodeo drive, had dinner at sona (it was incredible), and walked around beverly hills some more, before we finally picked it up from a flight that arrived at 10pm. the next day we went to church, lunch, forest lawn, and glendale mall, then had dinner at our usual shanghainese food haunt for ema & uncle john's anniversary. monday morning we had an early breakfast at the athenaeum at caltech, then took our huge van on the road towards arizona!

SCOTTSDALE AZ
the drive took six hours. we stopped at a place called blythe along the way for mcdo & gas. as soon as we got to the fairmont in scottsdale, my cousins and i went to go swimming in the east pool (which had two slides and sports). even after swimming, at 5:30pm, it was sweltering. the weather the whole time we were there was upwards of 100, but actually it wasn't as bad as we thought, again because of a few thunderstorms. we ate at morton's the first night, and opened a round of presents. the next day we had a girls' day out at fashion square...we lunched at neiman's, and i bought a new bag and some gold katespade flats. in the afternoon we went riding at the trailhead ranch...i had a feisty horse named petey...and rode out around the nature reserve. it was gorgeous...we watched the sunset, and saw lots of little bunnies, birds, and a few diamondback rattlesnakes. after that we had dinner at a crazy-beautiful place called sassi (prosciutto! lamb ragu! pork shoulder slices! fried artichokes!) , and went straight back to bed. the next morning we packed up, had a long long lunch at the LV Bistro, and opened the last round of presents. we checked out, drove to old town scottsdale, and then hit the road from there.

up up and away!

2006-08-07T10:38:00.000-10:00

stop #1: washington dc.
august 8th - 13th. chaperoning 6 high school kids, 24/7.

stop #2: deland, florida.
august 13th - 19th. springs, boating, fishing, chilling, & matt.

stop #3: los angeles.
august 19th - 20th. food, emmy.

stop #4: scottsdale, arizona.
august 21st - 23rd. spas, horses, pools, food, & birthdays!

home on august 24th.
boston on sept 10th.

crappy sister sonnet

2006-08-02T20:15:00.000-10:00

in halves of breaths i tuck myself away
in thumb-smoothed folds;
and under whispered layers
of cottoned secrets, i hope someday you'll find
the corners and uncrease their wearied lines.

these nights of severed dreams were coldly new,
so days of unkempt thoughts afloat on...love?
but your fingers slip so gently into mind,
your name begins to echo in the dark.

and so the empty space begins to grate
against itself, against the edge of light.
and i drift through the darkening, yawning wait
for some far day to find us two aligned.

and as for hope -- it trails me all the way
with halves of breaths to mark the passing days.

hello fledgling sonnet.

2006-07-28T14:55:00.000-10:00

hello world.

i drift along these pools of summer heat
with doubts like razor cuts in lines of three
stretching long and thin to bleed their tears & sighs
and taking flight on heaving wings of night.

you, stubborn, ruddy fingered, brawn of love
who in my airy rooms did love ignite
hold in those hands my blooms of light and youth
and wince from struggle not to crush them through.

and i dredge up a fiery furious past
and try to find a stance athena-tall
while sitting lonely as a child upon the grass
who fears the gritty shadows that he saw.

but, girlish, all my angers fall away,
at dawn, to crumbs, like flaky dust from clay.

freewrite

2006-07-26T13:13:00.000-10:00

i love ampersands. &. something about neatness & curviness at the sametime. &&&. surfeit. &&&&&&. it would make sense that someone who likes ampersands like knots. i kind of like knots. but not in so much of a like that i remember them afterwards. one-knot stands. i must have swallowed a clown. these little red flowers have four petals and their own publicists like matt and maati who try to get the rest of us to suck their sweet sap. i used to play a game with my mommy where we would watch for the yellow dumptrucks on the way to school in the morning, competing to be the first to see it, grab an imaginary handful of garbage, and slosh (why this verb? it sounds right? does it matter if the meaning is wrong?) it onto the other person's shoulder. i also like dashes; and their name sounds exactly like what i would imagine an old fountain pen or quill sounds like when it writes the dash...point presses into the paper for the D, swoops across the page for the -ash. sublime. and semicolons too. a feeling nurtured by "eats shoots and leaves"...the last time i saw that book was in the best borders in the whole wide world (in palo alto). it's not even the fountain or the conservation or the gaudy marquee that gets me. i think it's the space between the columns in the courtyard. somehow they seem so cozy. if i were a sleek long breeze i'd cuddle up there. they sure need breezes now in california; i can't imagine what it'll be like in scottsdale in august. good thing it's highly unlikely that places like the fairmont will ever run out of airconditioning, and good thing there's probably nothing else in scottsdale to see that might make anyone feel bad about wearing their footprints into the resort floors. i don't think anyone ever believes me when i say that the sky in hawaii is bluer than it is elsewhere. it's so blue i feel like i could peel it in soft rolls with my fingers, like you might do with softening ice cream or like i *do* do with my conditioning hair mask. only you couldtut never get to the bottom of it, so it'd be even more satisfying because you'd pull off as much as you pleased. i'm really supposed to be working; sometimes i think i will want a job that involves a pen, as much as i like computers. an ink pen, not a ballpoint. but what if it makes me tired of pens? what if i lose the funny little pen-itch? but itches aren't hard to come by...ones for paints, ones for a good solid shifter and a familiar clutch, ones for topsoil, for spatulas, for mixers! fishing poles, cocktail piece-rings, lemons, sunglasses cool to the touch. i've forgotten what it was like to write, kind of like pulling strands of raw cotton out of my fingers but cotton that behaves like thick honey. no, not honey...maple butter. we were meant to be poets, and i don't mean always with words. but even with words...i mean, the indians named the lake winnipisaukee...smiling waters.

from diego to the bay

2006-07-24T20:08:00.000-10:00

it occurs to me that i've been a roadtripping fiend this season. anyways, this time, it was sunny, will, and i ... against the backdrops of san diego (including las americas, only 1000ft from the border), la jolla, pasadena, west LA, santa monica, santa barbara, buellton, san luis obispo, san simeon, big sur, carmel-by-the-sea, monterey, pacific grove, pebble beach, santa cruz, cupertino, palo alto, & san francisco.

there's no possible way i'm going to narrate the entire thing, so here come the lists of favorites ...

TOP RANDOM THINGS

[ will ] water fountain near sd museum; water stones near sd museum; tomtom; my toe nail; fog/clouds; tomato juice; cruise control; sunny and jess!; nice t***

[ sunny ] cute mail boxes and our note; the mean lady outside of costco and how jess handled it; sleeping early and waking up early; will in pinks; fake celebrity at carmel-by-the-sea; ketchup and mustard at Hearst castle; old people flirting at SLO; much more hot girls than cute guys at all the places we went to; going to apple even when it is closed; having too many mangoes to finish

[ jess ] transition to sunshine on the 17-mile; hopkins mailbox note; "actually the 18-pc set was a pretty good idea"; cantaloupe nail polish / will's pedicurist's facial expression; forrest gump; halle berry's postwoman; ice-kebabs & pink mixers; trespassing at coronado; right-turn only

TOP EATS

[ will ] cody's; duckie's; in-n-out; cupertino!; sushi

[ sunny ] cody's; duckie's; nick's lighthouse; sushi; winesellar; cupertino

[ jess ] cody's; crepes; sushi; duckie's; dessert trio at wine sellar

TOP PLACES

[ will ] hearst; pebble beach; coronado; mussel shoal; santa cruz beach; l.a. beach/cliff

[ sunny ] coronado island and hotel; the big sur stretch of PCH; La Jolla; Hearst Castle; Pebble Beach

[ jess ] pebble beach; la jolla; santa cruz boardwalk; cayucos pier; mussel shoals

new england

2006-06-12T07:36:00.000-10:00

so i spent ten days scuttling around new england...leaving boston to go to portsmouth, kittery, olgonquit, kennebunkport, north conway, lincoln, st johnsbury, stowe, burlington, montreal, ottawa, belleville, richmond, toronto, niagara, buffalo, albany, then back to boston for commencement. it was an absolute blast.

From: Jessica Hui Mailed-By: gmail.com
Date: May 30, 2006 9:58 PM
Subject: Hello from New Hampshire!

Hey all,

We're in North Conway, New Hampshire, for the night, where we came from Maine (through Kittery, Olgunquit, and Kennebunkport) this morning. The trip to Maine was incredibly quick (only 90min from my dorm). Yesterday we had lots of lobster (rolls at lunch and whole at dinner at a little hole-in-the-wall in Kennebunkport) and stopped at a bunch of rundown antique shops. Stayed at a little inn in Olgunquit. This morning we saw another antique place, run by one R. Jorgensen and his family, on a gorgeous 57-acre estate...it was mad fab, and all their stuff was restored very very well. We passed Sanford and the Lakes Region on our way out of Maine (one of the lakes, Winnipisaukee, means "Smiling Waters" in whichever Native Am. language it originated in...I'm extrapolating from this name and "Milwaukee" that the -aukee suffix must mean some sort of water or lake), and the lakes were amazing: deep, cold, clear water with high high pines to the very edge. Often little houses were also built on the very edge of the shore (and also on little islands on the lake), and though there were many boats docked it was incredibly quiet...we didn't see a soul out there. The weather is beautiful ... crisp and cool, with bright sun and constant breezes that yield against you. I think it's probably too cool for swimming, though, as cold as the water is, though it's perfect otherwise.

North Conway's at the foot of White Mountain and home to famous outlet malls, and the hotel we're staying at tonight (called the North Conway Grand Hotel) is not only really really pretty but it is about 10 feet from the first outlet stores. We're essentially attached to the outlet mall...which is, by the way, the quietest outlet mall ever, with parking spaces galore. A rare find indeed, and no tax. Otherwise, North Conway is tiny and deserted. At 6:30pm all the stores were closed, and only a handful of restaurants to be found (literally a handful). Apparently everything closes at 5pm. They have a sort of commons, where kids were playing softball (complete with uniforms), and I really think the entire population was there in attendance. The commons also contains the playground, the fire station, and rail station. There are two stoplights, and one movie theatre with one screen (actually there were two but only one movie, the Da Vinci Code, is showing).

My internet usage will be spotty, and my cell phone coverage, though less so, is also less than reliable. Can't blame anyone, though, when you're not even around houses. =) Tomorrow we drive the Kancamagus Highway through to Lincoln, and on into Vermont!

Love,
Jess

From: Jessica Hui Mailed-By: gmail.com
Date: May 31, 2006 11:01 PM
Subject: From Vermont!

Dear all,

We left New Hampshire via the Kancamagus (an Indian chief's name meaning "fearless one") Highway, stopping at scenic points Lower Falls, Rocky Gorge, and a Divide which diverts water two ways down to the Atlantic. No swimming allowed at Rocky Gorge due to an accident in the last century where a girl diving in the pool was trapped for hours beneath a waterfall before people found her, barely alive. We saw cyclers very much deserving of the highway name, as they were going uphill in those high mountains (I think the highest elevation was 3000 feet). Highway ended in sleepy and unremarkable town of Lincoln.

Continued on through Franconia to see the Flume Gorge, an incredibly deep cut in the land that was discovered at the end of the 19th century by a 93-year-old woman who was out fishing. None of her family would believe her until they eventually saw it with their own eyes. We took a 2-mile hike through the gorge, past a waterfall, through another Liberty Gorge, and over deep (40-feet) glacier pool. Near after was Echo Lake, a huge wide thing at the opening of the valleys, with strong breezes, very cold clear water, and an incredibly quiet white sandy beach. All these places are neat and clean; nothing littered, nothing broken. After that we visited the Robert Frost house (the poem Oven Bird is placard-ed in his backyard clearing) before going on to Littleton and its Littleton Grist Mill (some 200 years old, restored lately to begin grinding its own flour and such again).

From Littleton we drove into Vermont in the face of a newly arrived thunderstorm, which sent lightning bolts down around us and drove Mom nuts! Our hotel is five minutes from St Johnsbury proper, where we had dinner at a place called Elements Foods (certainly on my list of world favorites, serving Vermont-fresh foods rather inventively) and roamed around town afterwards looking at various old churches (dating back to 1870s) and the St Johnsbury Athenaeum, whose double-decker bookshelves complete with half-level walkways are tempting.

Have yet to find fresh lemonade.

Love, Jess

beginning in montreal, we lived in a few adorable little bed'n'breakfasts, so the internet access (and email updates) came to a screeching halt. what we did thereafter...

the best thing ever

2006-05-05T18:15:00.000-10:00

so today, i was walking back from the dining hall, and as i approached these steps in the courtyard i noticed a squirrel going into a hole in a bush next to the stairs. and then it stopped, halfway in. and all that was sticking out was its little bushy tail.

i, for one, have never gotten quite that close to a harvard squirrel, or any squirrel for that matter. and it couldn't see me, so i took the three remaining steps to get right next to it, and still it didn't move!

so i yanked its tail.

it was by far one of the best things ever. i had one thought before i did it (which was a quick wonder about whether it might bite me) and that was gone in a split second. the squirrel ran into the bush. its tail was definitely not as soft and fluffy as it looked. but very satisfying nonetheless.

and no, i cannot stop thinking about it.
and yes, i would do it again. =)

friday funfest

2006-04-15T06:51:00.000-10:00

matt and i had a leisurely morning being lazy yesterday, then got dressed in our warm weather gear, got an early lunch, and took a long bike ride along the charles river (to the BU bridge and back through parks and things). then we settled down next to the weeks bridge with our country music on the inMotion, a fishing pole, and my new phone. it was so delightful. even though we didn't catch any fish. we had the bright idea also to bring two blankets this time for more square footage to lay on (guess who takes up more space??). hahah. as we were leaving we saw this gorgeous little purple&white tulip ... or rather, matt saw it and i oohed-and-ahhed over it. then i went to work, and matt went to practice. in the evening there was dinner, how i met your mother, survival of the richest, and felipe's. what a great day. =)

you're beautiful

2006-03-25T20:57:00.000-10:00

i have no idea why this song gets me so bad...it's utterly amazing...i guess there's something about the moments you have with people that really will last an entire lifetime, even if they're the most isolated, most ungraspable, most un-keepable moments ever.

-----------------------------------------
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

senior singles!

2006-03-24T08:05:00.000-10:00

Senior Single
Originally uploaded by jessihui.

apparently had enough luck to cover two people in today's senior singles lottery, and snagged suites for both matt and myself. yay!

here's the floor plan of my room-to-be...and now i'm off to la and honolulu! =)

things that make me upset

2006-03-18T14:20:00.000-10:00

1. uncle sam

i have to pay about $1500 in federal and state taxes next month. needless to say, i am pretty pissed.

2. cold weather

last weekend i was sitting outside in the sun productively doing my reading. today was just the opposite. it is cold. way too cold. and this brings us to #3...

3. unproductiveness

i started out the morning okay, reading my chapter for english 101 (in which i have a midterm on tuesday). unfortunately, i have no idea what happened to the time between coming back up from lunch (around 1:30pm) and 6:30pm, at which point i talked to matt on the phone and wasn't able to figure out what i had done with my afternoon.

4. lots of stuff to do

#3 would be manageable if there weren't actually stuff to do. like the midterm. and homework. and lots of this thing called A12 reading (which i feel bad about because matt is doing way more than i am and i want to help out).

5. will chen

because he's my bestest friend but i am tired of him being a punk. it's his last semester here and while i get to hang out with him when he is sad, i am now ditched for some little freshman crush. *sigh*. boys are such airheads.

sweet springtime!

2006-03-15T12:08:00.000-10:00

i have been the proud smeller of hyacinths. i got a beautiful periwinkle-blue pot (mum commissioned their purchase) for girls' day. when it unbloomed (some might even say that they reached this sad state prematurely because some overzealous person overwatered it...) i was sad and the guy at petali (the very beautiful little flower shoppe next to au bon pain here in the square) gave me another (pink/lavender) one gratis! pictures forthcoming?

it has also been splendidly warm (until today when it snowed and hailed). i celebrated by reading on blankets outdoors, and patronizing lots of restaurants. and i mean warm: i wore strappy sandals and a skirt to dinner with will at the blue room. yea! sarah and i had lunch at takemura. whee! pete and i lunched at henrietta's table. all very pleasant.

spring, persist!

somehow that word always comes with a twinge though.

protector of the bread

2006-03-08T06:42:00.000-10:00

one of the eight-million *really* cool things i've learned in english 101 (a class called 'the history and structure of the english language'...not, as its name may suggest, english for fourth-graders):

the modern word for 'lady' comes from the old english word 'hlæfdige'.

this word is the compound of 'hlæf' (trans. 'loaf', as in a loaf of bread) and 'dige' (trans. 'one who kneads'). 'hlæfdige', then, means 'the kneader of the bread-loaf'.

the word for 'lord', on the other hand, comes from the OE word 'hlæford'.

this in turn is the compound of 'hlæf' and 'lord' (trans. 'protector'). 'hlæford' (or 'hlaford') means 'protector of the bread-loaf'.

so our grand titles of lady and lord?
the kneader of the bread, and the protector of the bread.

oh yeah.

hmmm?

2006-03-06T07:14:00.000-10:00

isnt it curious than when you look at the sun (like when it's behind a cloud and you can make out its distinct outline), it is pretty much the exact size as the moon?

ahem

2006-01-09T13:06:00.000-10:00

hello katherine. =)

"they call it paradise"

2005-08-24T14:37:00.000-10:00

first we went to krispy kreme

a rainbow from near our resort in kapalua. i saw a sextuple rainbow for the first time while on maui.

sunsets on rte 380 as we drove from kapalua out to lahaina.

home sweet home

2005-08-18T23:04:00.000-10:00

i got home last tuesday, and it's been a ball since. i unpacked everything, especially my books (after daddy came home too)...mommy and i hemmed and hawed and shifted and squeezed until we fit all the new books into an already-full set of bookcases. we've also been baking strawberry pies (at the same pace that i eat them, which is about a slice a day...except one day i had TWO slices), and waking up late (generally 9:30am for me). very fun.

one of the days we had dimsum with auntie elaine in koko marina

i also spent a morning going to doctors' appointments...to the dermatologist's and to healthpass. my total cholesterol went down, but so did my good cholesterol. my fasting glucose went down too. my body fat is 18% compared to the recommended 24-31%, whereas last year i was 11% compared to the recommended 12-18%...how the measuring is being done (or not) is beyond me. i took a picture with the model of 5lbs of fat...only, i wasn't able to swallow my cookie in time, so (ironically) this is a picture of me with 5lbs of fat and a mouth stuffed with cookie. hahaha.

also had dinner (at spices) with uncle les, auntie kyukyu, and their son ryan (who's '92). we ran into mr hamamoto and mr dyke there...both of whom pretended rather unsuccessfully to recognize us when we went over to say hello.

the other day i had coffee with jenny and ced (our advanced pre-calc honors teacher) in manoa...2 hours flew by like nothing...we had lots of fun chatting, and ran into both clynton namuo (i always run into him!) and jack canfield (who recognizes me even though i've never had him)! it was lots of fun.

goo-ma and goo-jeung (my paternal aunt, and uncle) came today from hong kong. we had lunch at zippy's, then dinner at morton's. it's goo-jeung's bday, and he's been celebrating for two days because of the time differences...so cool! tomorrow we're going to maui, after which there'll be lots of cool pictures, and even more if i can get the pictures from my underwater cameras up!

the perfect guy

2005-08-13T22:21:00.000-10:00

The Perfect Guy
Created by madhatter and taken 26157 times on bzoink!
Hair color?	should include brown
Eye color?	hazel/blue/green
Height?	taller than 5'9"
Six pack?	not resting
Long hair or short?	medium
Glasses?	hmm...prob not
Piercings?	nooooo
Eyebrows?	normal?
Big butt or little?	medium
Chest hair?	noooo
Buff or skinny?	medium
Teeth?	healthy
Section 2
Funny or serious?	funny
Party-hopper or more stay-at-home?	stay-at-home
Should he be able to bake or cook?	yes
Does he have a best friend?	yes
Is it okay for him to have a lot of female friends?	everything in moderation
Out-going or shy?	on the shy side
Sarcastic or sincere?	sincere
Does he love his mother?	of course
Should he watch chick-flicks?	the ones i like
Would he be a smoker?	absolutely not
How about a drinking?	ideally no
And swearing?	rarely
Would he play with your hair?	yes yes yes!
Would he have more than one girlfriend at a time?	oh HELL no
Would he pay for you when you're on a date?	yes
Does he kiss on the first date?	no
Where would you go for dinner?	someplace cool and calm
Would he buy you flowers?	yes
Would he lay under the stars with you and spout random philosophies?	not the random philosophy part
Would he write poetry about you?	yes
Would he use endearments?	yes, not overly
Would he hang out with your and YOUR friends?	yes
How about you hanging out with him and HIS friends?	absolutely
Would he walk you up to the door at the end of the evening?	yes
Would you hold hands?	of course!
Section 3
Does he play soccer?	maybe
Baseball?	sure =)
Football?	no!
Basketball?	sure
Water polo?	no
Golf or something equally boring?	no
Does he surf?	no but he could
Skateboard?	no
Snowboard?	when we ski
Can he sing?	only matters that he does
Play the guitar?	yes
Play piano?	yes
Play the drums?	yes
Can he keep his room clean?	yes and efficiently so
Is he an artist of sorts?	no
Does he write his own music?	no
Does he have pets?	yes!
Section 4
Does he use the word dude?	sparingly
How about tight?	rarely
Would he watch the sun rise and set with you?	yes
What kind of car does he drive?	one with stick, that's well-kept
How old is he?	not more than 4 years older or 1 year younger
What's his name?	doesnt matter. not jose. or michel.
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florida

2005-08-10T21:23:00.000-10:00

flew down to FL to visit matt...

got in friday evening, met his family, ate a late dinner, and played sequence with the pembertons. saturday morning after breakfast we went to new smyrna beach (after stopping by walmart & kfc) -- the first time i've been to the beach since january. in the afternoon we biked around the neighborhood and explored the railroad tracks, a blueberry/grasshopper field, and called on mrs d (?) and mr stormann (sp?)...as well as on a nice hill of fire-ants. ouch. we had dinner at home and celebrated esther's sweet sixteen...then went out rockclimbing with her, mary, and the pembertons in longwood. after that we went to steak'n'shake before making it home at around 1am (!!).

sunday morning we went to church and matt made me stand up and be introduced. =P haha. after lunch we hung around the house for awhile before going to deleon springs...while we waited for the springs to open matt took me out in his boat along the river and we saw two alligators, lots of little coot birds, some blue herons, egrets, &c. very cool! and i got to drive =). after the springs we went home for a quick shower and dinner before going to PATH with katherine! on monday we slept in, then had morning singing before matt and i went to tour deland. we went to see the hummingbird garden by a marina, then to the town itself where we walked around before having lunch. we went back home and caught mary, esther, katherine and sam as they were grasshopper catching, and joined them for awhile before going home to help churn peach ice cream. then i packed and we went to the airport!

pictures:

me holding one of their chickens

with the boys at the beach

holding matt's snake with sam

with katherine at PATH

feeding a horse along the road

with esther, betsy, and mary

the whole family

with matt at the airport ; )

a fresh glance

2004-05-20T13:09:00.000-10:00

will i convert from xanga? who knows. let's tool around a bit and see what it's like.